But you know what? It wasn't as hard as I thought.
I did stumble over some ugly memories, like the never-ending nights trying to do something of the macroeconomics exercises, just to get 45% of the answers. In the end I kept the scripts just to remind me that I did try my best.
There were of copies of my CV, those I made thinking I would be able to get a job here and stay... those I had to throw away, keeping in mind, though, that next week I have an interview to work somewhere else, but still in Europe (shocked? I still can't believe it!).
I threw away the countless papers I printed on quantile regression, hoping that I could impress an interviewer in the only economics-related job opportunity that arose here. It reminded me of my "not-enough-research-profile" that didn't allow me to get the job. That hurt.
The Microeconometrics paper was also there. That day I did so badly in that exam that I just couldn't pull myself together for the next one. I thought I wouldn't even get 30%, but in the end they made us pass, but I still failed the exam just after that one.
I also went through the articles of Economics of Development, the subject I failed. I remember I didn't feel it had gone that bad. I still don't know what was wrong with it, so looking at the articles I was wondering which question, which topic had marked my doom.
In the end of 9 folders I was left with 3. But I still think:
*What did this Master leave me?*
Economics almost scores and auto-goal because of the ugly memories that still hurt. But doesn't quite make it because I know the scars will fade away...eventually.
